The Breakdown

Well, its finally happened. My creative drive has stalled...

Usually, I don't like going into detail about my personal life. I use to type up rants on a daily basis, just horribly worded garbage about how unfair everything was and the various jerks in my life and I only stopped doing that last year when I switched Deviantart accounts. If anyone was coming off as a jerk, it was me and I hated that. So, I started new...but now... ugh, I just need someone to talk to, I guess.

I don't know. Currently, I'm sitting at my desk at work, staring at a blank sheet in my sketchbook and for the first time ever, I'm actually intimidated by it. It doesn't help that I'm actually belittling myself for the artwork I posted on Saturday and even considered taking it down. But that's not me. I don't draw and write for the attention; I do it because I'm passionate about it and because I'm good at it. So why is it bothering me so much that it seems nothing I do is good enough for everyone else?

So there's that. There's also the fact that my school is being difficult and scheduled my classes in such a way that I'm losing out on two whole days of work. I'm basically taking a $320 pay cut and I wasn't earning that much to begin with...

The whole irony in this stressful situation is that my personal stress reliever is art.

Except I can't draw.

And that stresses me out more.

Man, I hope this artistic block goes away soon... I can't stand to be like this. 

Character Profile- Sophia Irwinn

So I'm starting something new...again. I had a friend on Deviantart ask me about the back story on some of my OC's. Well, I get that question quite a bit and since school and work tend to interrupt my ability to write and draw out all their back stories, I figured putting them up here wouldn't hurt :)

(Please note that all the characters, concepts and stories do belong to me. I find out that someone else is running around with any of them, horrible things will happen...)

Any-way...

Name: Sophia Irwinn
Species: Platypus
Age: 16 (at the time of her first real appearance. She makes a brief cameo at age fourteen in Crossfire, but doesn't really get to talk or do anything)
Personality: Out-going, a little snarky, but bubbly, adventurous
Flaws: Argumentative, she enjoys playing Devil's Advocate and will get into heated arguments with Honker about everything, absentminded, tunnel-vision, speaks without thinking
Hobbies: photography
Alliance: Neutral, but leaning more towards good
Background: Sophia Irwinn is the third oldest and only girl in a family of twelve. She has two older brothers and six younger brothers. Her family moved from Brisbane, AU to St. Canard, Calisota when she was ten after her father purchased a Sugar and Spice Bakery (the same one that housed the cake-portal to the Negaverse, actually.) Her parents turn the small bakery into a rather successful sandwich shop within a year. For the first few years of her life in St. Canard, Sophie keeps to herself until she was caught up in the chaos during the Multiple Darkwing Crisis. Rather than run for her life as she should have, she slipped into a empty drug store, grabbed a disposal camera and began snapping pictures. It wasn't until her older brothers saved her from being crushed under Darkwarrior's tank that she stopped. Once the crisis was over and she developed the pictures (and her parents sold a few despite Sophie's protests), she began keeping tabs on superhero and villain sightings and sneaking out at night to take pictures. Her love for photography soon grew past just the action shots and she began studying it intensely throughout middle school and high school, even volunteering to take photos for the yearbook at any and all outside events. She meets Gosalyn during a soccer tournament she's taking pictures at. It isn't until high school that the two become good friends, though (due mostly to having all the same classes and homeroom together). Eventually, Gos and Sophie end up sharing an apartment during their time in college. During that time, Sophie discovers that Gosalyn is Quiverwing Quack (but never does put together that Drake Mallard is Darkwing.) To keep Sophie from flying off the handle and telling everyone her secret, Gosalyn agrees to let the girl tag along on some of her adventures and let her take photos.

The Music- Marty and Launchpad

So, my New Year's sucked. My dad made me cry during my shift at the bakery and so now every time one of our regulars stroll in, they throw me a pitying look and ask me how I am... it's embarrassing. I'd get into the whole story of why my father is antagonizing me, but its so lame. Plus, it's not even for something I did, rather it's because of my sister. Just know, she's 21 (about to be 22) and I am not her keeper.

Anyway, even with all that awkwardness (or maybe because of it) I'm finding myself losing my ability to draw again. Not good. I started last year off the same way, I refuse to kick off 2011 like that. But in the meantime, I figured I would focus my energy on Crossfire and everything that entails. And that led me to thinking about the songs I associate with couples.

So Marty and Launchpad:

Crossfire- Brandon Flowers
Under the Gun - The Killers
Careless Whisper - Tamia -or- Seether (The original George Michaels version works too, but I prefer either one of these covers over it).
It Takes Two- Rob Base and DJ EZ
Strawberry Wine- Deana Carter
Sweet and Wild- Dierks Bentley
Thinking of You - Katy Perry
Warning Sign - Coldplay
Anything You Can Do- Bernadette Peters and Tom Wompat
That Thing You Do - Fountains of Wayne
Johnny and June - Heidi Newfield
Maybe - Ingrid Michaelson
Hollaback Girl vs. Give it to Me- DJ Hero Mix
Complicated - Carolyn Dawn Johnson
The Kiss - Karmina
Lay Me Down- Dirty Heads (Technically, this is only for their Negaverse counterparts. If you listen to the lyrics, the story it tells is exactly how I imagine Nega-LP and Nega-Marty's tale to go...but bloodier.)

This list is bound to grow as I keep writing and drawing these two, but for sure, these are the ones that are permanent fixtures on any playlist I associate with them. They aren't the only couple I have a playlist for, but I'll save that for next time ;)

Oh and artwork today!

Some sketches for a meme I've been trying to complete for a while now. 

A very sketchy design for a huge project (Toon Prom) a fellow artist (Canti550) on Deviant Art is doing.

And last but not least, a commission I've been struggling to fix :[